Thursday, November 15, 2012
its been such a long time since i update my blog...
so let me see what has been happening in my life...
Family..
same old issue, never ending problems..
i thought with me seldom coming home, things will be abit better..
but im wrong, as usual..
it hurts to see mom depress and sad, but i cant always be there for her...
at e end later we both will end up fighting, cause she can never take my advice..
so for now, its just daily routine for her to msg me asking me where i am and etc..
i do feel bad for what im doing, but its for e best..
cause u will never noe if my words can just create another fight at home...
as for my brother, i dun care what he is doing and gonna do.. as long as he dont bother me, im fine with it.. yes i do still hate him for what he have done so far, so e best solution is not to see and talk to him as long as i can.. guess e last i really had a conversation with him was like a few months back.. so i guess dats good...
Friends
My bestboys are busy with their own live.. yes i do admit i miss hanging out with dem almost every week.. but guess things change... i dun want to talk further about this, cause it is just pointless and at least im glad im still in contact with udin and gf.. and i so cant wait for out holiday in feb..!!
as for syah, im super disappointed in u, but who am i to say right.. u live ur life e way u want it.. but just remember something, KARMA IS A BITCH...
Familia
Im very happy dat kak nor relationship didnt work out.. i noe this sound bad, but i do have my reason.. she may look happy and all but i know her too well.. deep down she is hurting in dat r/ship... and im proud of u to make dis decision and move on.. u so deserve better... mayb e next one is gonna guide u in a better way.. =)
the rest of my kakak, im not sure what is going on in their life, but i know all of them are strong ladies.. Insyallah everyone of us will find happiness at e end...
as for my other familia members, i hope and pray u all made e right decision in ur life.. cherish ur love one, and if just remember what e others did for u when u r down.. jgn lupa kan e one yg sacrifice a lot for u just because u r in a r/ship... nak buat aper2 tgk surrounding dulu.. we all love u dearly, but we are scared if we teguh, u nt gonna like it.. hopefully, u will realise it soon and mend ur ways...
Love
As for my relationship, im glad he is still around after all this while... he stick to his promise and never fail to put a smile on my face... yes he can b a HUGE pain in my ass most of e time, but he is still e sweetest bf ever... and if Allah izinkan, insyallah we will be an officially get married next yr june.. hopefully everything goes smoothly as we plan..
so dats is e summary of what has happen so far.. thanks to bblove for helping me to overcome everything dat happen last year.. he has been patient and supporting towards me.. and as for e other dude, im disappointed when i saw, and deep down i still dun understand why u must lie to me.. if u were to tell me e truth, i would b ok with it.. but never e less, i still pray for ur happiness with her..
and i know there are a few unexpected people still reading my blog, i wish u all e best in life and till we meet again... =) be safe and always remember, smile always...
so let me see what has been happening in my life...
Family..
same old issue, never ending problems..
i thought with me seldom coming home, things will be abit better..
but im wrong, as usual..
it hurts to see mom depress and sad, but i cant always be there for her...
at e end later we both will end up fighting, cause she can never take my advice..
so for now, its just daily routine for her to msg me asking me where i am and etc..
i do feel bad for what im doing, but its for e best..
cause u will never noe if my words can just create another fight at home...
as for my brother, i dun care what he is doing and gonna do.. as long as he dont bother me, im fine with it.. yes i do still hate him for what he have done so far, so e best solution is not to see and talk to him as long as i can.. guess e last i really had a conversation with him was like a few months back.. so i guess dats good...
Friends
My bestboys are busy with their own live.. yes i do admit i miss hanging out with dem almost every week.. but guess things change... i dun want to talk further about this, cause it is just pointless and at least im glad im still in contact with udin and gf.. and i so cant wait for out holiday in feb..!!
as for syah, im super disappointed in u, but who am i to say right.. u live ur life e way u want it.. but just remember something, KARMA IS A BITCH...
Familia
Im very happy dat kak nor relationship didnt work out.. i noe this sound bad, but i do have my reason.. she may look happy and all but i know her too well.. deep down she is hurting in dat r/ship... and im proud of u to make dis decision and move on.. u so deserve better... mayb e next one is gonna guide u in a better way.. =)
the rest of my kakak, im not sure what is going on in their life, but i know all of them are strong ladies.. Insyallah everyone of us will find happiness at e end...
as for my other familia members, i hope and pray u all made e right decision in ur life.. cherish ur love one, and if just remember what e others did for u when u r down.. jgn lupa kan e one yg sacrifice a lot for u just because u r in a r/ship... nak buat aper2 tgk surrounding dulu.. we all love u dearly, but we are scared if we teguh, u nt gonna like it.. hopefully, u will realise it soon and mend ur ways...
Love
As for my relationship, im glad he is still around after all this while... he stick to his promise and never fail to put a smile on my face... yes he can b a HUGE pain in my ass most of e time, but he is still e sweetest bf ever... and if Allah izinkan, insyallah we will be an officially get married next yr june.. hopefully everything goes smoothly as we plan..
so dats is e summary of what has happen so far.. thanks to bblove for helping me to overcome everything dat happen last year.. he has been patient and supporting towards me.. and as for e other dude, im disappointed when i saw, and deep down i still dun understand why u must lie to me.. if u were to tell me e truth, i would b ok with it.. but never e less, i still pray for ur happiness with her..
and i know there are a few unexpected people still reading my blog, i wish u all e best in life and till we meet again... =) be safe and always remember, smile always...
Yours Truly, 8:26 PM.
