Tuesday, December 20, 2011
next week marks the 3rd month u left us..
my heart still cries for u love..
the day abg yus msg me, telling me abt e accident, i totally break down..
i was actually talking to myself, asking y nizam.. y did u do that..
why must u sacrifice urself just to protect me..
until i dont know should i hate u, or should i thank u, or should i love u more..
if u r still alive, i would already nag and slap ur face..
but i can only do all that in my imagination..
='(
do u know ur actions broke ALOT of hearts?
and do u know i am still blaming myself for the accident..
and how much i wish that saturday we didnt make up after our fight.
i still remember clearly u told me u menyesal kenal dgn i..
if only i walk away and delete u from my life,
u would actually b living right now...
there is alot of IF in my head...
but what's the point, u r up there now..
all i can do is setakat smpai kan al-fateha and yasin for u..
and even if i die, i dun think u remember me when im up there..
all i have now is just the sweet memories we have..
everytime when im at town, i remember our first date out for movies..
everytime when i went to jb, i remember our trips every week there..
everytime i went to MBS, i remember the time we spend there..
i may know u for a few mnths, but the impact u have in me was HUGE..!!
u pick me up after my awful engagement.. u showed me the meaning of love again..
and we never had an argument until dat day..
hairul nizam, thank u so much for giving me the opportunity to love u,
take care of u, be the last person to actually see u alive..
ana tk pernah menyesal kenal dgn nizam..
cause u know how to make me smile and laugh and just be happy..
if someone ever plan to replace u in my life, he must be BETTER den u..
to family member of nizam,
im sorry for causing this accident.. i know when he left us, all of u are affected and feeling super down.. how i wish i can trade places with him.. cause i cant bare to see all of u missing him so much.. and i know without him in ur life, hidup mcm sunyi.. once again, im so sorry... please forgive me..
my heart still cries for u love..
the day abg yus msg me, telling me abt e accident, i totally break down..
i was actually talking to myself, asking y nizam.. y did u do that..
why must u sacrifice urself just to protect me..
until i dont know should i hate u, or should i thank u, or should i love u more..
if u r still alive, i would already nag and slap ur face..
but i can only do all that in my imagination..
='(
do u know ur actions broke ALOT of hearts?
and do u know i am still blaming myself for the accident..
and how much i wish that saturday we didnt make up after our fight.
i still remember clearly u told me u menyesal kenal dgn i..
if only i walk away and delete u from my life,
u would actually b living right now...
there is alot of IF in my head...
but what's the point, u r up there now..
all i can do is setakat smpai kan al-fateha and yasin for u..
and even if i die, i dun think u remember me when im up there..
all i have now is just the sweet memories we have..
everytime when im at town, i remember our first date out for movies..
everytime when i went to jb, i remember our trips every week there..
everytime i went to MBS, i remember the time we spend there..
i may know u for a few mnths, but the impact u have in me was HUGE..!!
u pick me up after my awful engagement.. u showed me the meaning of love again..
and we never had an argument until dat day..
hairul nizam, thank u so much for giving me the opportunity to love u,
take care of u, be the last person to actually see u alive..
ana tk pernah menyesal kenal dgn nizam..
cause u know how to make me smile and laugh and just be happy..
if someone ever plan to replace u in my life, he must be BETTER den u..
to family member of nizam,
im sorry for causing this accident.. i know when he left us, all of u are affected and feeling super down.. how i wish i can trade places with him.. cause i cant bare to see all of u missing him so much.. and i know without him in ur life, hidup mcm sunyi.. once again, im so sorry... please forgive me..
Yours Truly, 4:30 AM.
