miszfurri

2012-02-12T11:52:00.002+08:00

i don't need to celebrate Valentine's Day cause he make me feel appreciate and love everyday.. and i'm thankful to have a wonderful man in my life that is willing to do ANYTHING for me.. thank u so much love for being there for me always..

Love ya, Indra..

*Muacks

2012-02-05T22:49:00.002+08:00

My DREAM CAR..!! Mazda 3.. Love the outlook.. not so into the engine and all cause this is SINGAPORE..! speed sikit je kene saman and etc etc.. this will be in ma WISHLIST of course, but if only i can afford to grab a car.. and the colour RED is like SUPER HOT..!! =)

this is like EVERY LADY dream and wish to have.. MAC make up, love their colors and all.. and as usual this will be going to my WISHLIST... so gonna grab it after i get myself a job.. den time to dress up and be the OLD ANA back.. =) cant wait.. <3

Love the colors of the LAPPY... i want the GREEN one..!!

i just love the camera cause of the color.. hehe.. i love GREEN what can i say.. =D

2012-02-05T15:00:00.002+08:00

i have this stupid habit of speeding things up..

only 2days i am being discharged & i cant wait to recover..

i noe i cant like hope a miracle to happen but i cant stand the fact living like this..

for instant, asking mom and granny to help me do the daily stuff..

like help me to grab my clothes after shower..

get my drink and food for me..

that is so NOT ME..!!

i dun order them around since young

and having to do it all over again is like a total nightmare for me..

enduring it for the next 5weeks is like hell for me...

='(

i just hate having the thought of depending on my family members to get something done...

and if i start walking again without my crutches, LOT of people will physically and literally kill me... but i have my reasons for doing all that..

and yes the last time i did it, i terOVER la kan...

until i went to the extend crossing my leg when sitting down, bending here and there to get my own clothes... it hurts but yet im still doing it and till it BROKE..!!

can i just walk again but this time with LIMITS??

k, i can like practically hear my love ones shouting NO to my ears if i ask them that question..

guess i just got to endure it and try not feel too guilty asking my granny and mom for help...

reading the card that cookie monster wrote for my last yr bday really touches my heart..

=) yes i noe i have not been a good daughter/grand daughter or even a human for the past 22yrs of my life.. and every day im hoping and wishing i will change.. and i will, but in my own ways..

this is promise u my dear lil cookie monster, kakak may not be the best person in ur life to tell about what is life and all, but i will promise u i will change to be a better person.. =) having u ard is a blessing for me lil sis.. u really open my eyes on how bright and adorable my cousins are to me.. and how much u and e rest means to me.. will change so that the OTHERS will stop the nonsense talk and looking down and all.. miss having the talk with u.. =) and im glad u made it this far in life.. and i noe u wont bring shame in any ways to ur family, cause u r indeed a bright and intelligent lady.. =) love u from the day u were born till like FOREVER.. and u will forever be my faithful and loyal lover.. haha.. =)

2012-02-04T19:43:00.002+08:00

Ombak Rindu – Hafiz & Adira

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosaku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala dukaku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya ‘tuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dariku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mataku
Yang mengalir membasuh lukaku
Agar dia tahu ku tersiksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hanya mampu berserah
Moga cahaya tiba nanti

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terimaku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

2012-01-04T07:52:00.003+08:00

2011 was a painful year for me.. the 1st 6 mnths was great den sad.. ended a painful engagement... after that fail madly and deeply in love with an angel... but it only lasted for 3mnths+ and Allah have to take him away... =')

im still in a process of healing.. it is gonna take some time to move on and all.. Yes, i may be in a relationship now etc but only Allah knows what my heart really wants..

2011-12-20T04:30:00.002+08:00

next week marks the 3rd month u left us..
my heart still cries for u love..
the day abg yus msg me, telling me abt e accident, i totally break down..
i was actually talking to myself, asking y nizam.. y did u do that..
why must u sacrifice urself just to protect me..
until i dont know should i hate u, or should i thank u, or should i love u more..
if u r still alive, i would already nag and slap ur face..
but i can only do all that in my imagination..
='(
do u know ur actions broke ALOT of hearts?
and do u know i am still blaming myself for the accident..
and how much i wish that saturday we didnt make up after our fight.
i still remember clearly u told me u menyesal kenal dgn i..
if only i walk away and delete u from my life,
u would actually b living right now...
there is alot of IF in my head...
but what's the point, u r up there now..
all i can do is setakat smpai kan al-fateha and yasin for u..
and even if i die, i dun think u remember me when im up there..
all i have now is just the sweet memories we have..

everytime when im at town, i remember our first date out for movies..
everytime when i went to jb, i remember our trips every week there..
everytime i went to MBS, i remember the time we spend there..
i may know u for a few mnths, but the impact u have in me was HUGE..!!
u pick me up after my awful engagement.. u showed me the meaning of love again..
and we never had an argument until dat day..

hairul nizam, thank u so much for giving me the opportunity to love u,
take care of u, be the last person to actually see u alive..
ana tk pernah menyesal kenal dgn nizam..
cause u know how to make me smile and laugh and just be happy..
if someone ever plan to replace u in my life, he must be BETTER den u..

to family member of nizam,
im sorry for causing this accident.. i know when he left us, all of u are affected and feeling super down.. how i wish i can trade places with him.. cause i cant bare to see all of u missing him so much.. and i know without him in ur life, hidup mcm sunyi.. once again, im so sorry... please forgive me..